Dear Wedharma Diary,
Today was a day that seemed to be just like any other “normal” Thursday. BUT, during the course of my day I was reminded of a situation in my life that brought me DEEP pain, a sense of rejection by another that I was NOT in control of and just a BIG recollection of the helplessness, confusion and finality of a time in life that I THOUGHT would go much differently then it had. Not to mention the self blame, self torture of feeling less than perfect, and so on and so on.
This “feeling” we are sometimes confronted with, the reality of not being “accepted” or feeling “separated” from love, from acceptance from oneness CAN BE A GIFT! “Believe it or not”. I am so THANKFUL for working hard the past few months at GETTING REAL. I have worked to become as “conscious” as I can about my REALISTIC SELF, not my perceived reality! My practice, my daily seeking, the changes I have made and am making to my thoughts, my environment, and the pondering of all of my mistakes, misfortunes, successes and most of all my CURRENT situation. This has all been such a SUPPORT in showing me the gift of my sadness, of my rejection. . . . AND WHY IT EXISTS!
The GIFT of HUMILITY and STILLNESS . . . a very focused feeling of presence, openness, compassion. When we feel this deep compassion towards our own situations, it is a beautiful SIGN that we LOVE OURSELVES 
We want to take care of OURSELVES and with that we want to accept and take care of OTHERS. We start to see that by helping ourselves, we are helping the world. We are all energy and with that comes the SHIFT towards “acceptance” for SELF. We start to accept that the one who rejected is ourselves and IF we allow another to do this then we have in some way GIVEN THEM OUR POWER . . . BUT WHY? When we sit STILL and ponder from this space of SELF LOVE, we can see that we have a false perception of SOMEONE ELSE BEING MORE VALUABLE THEN WE ARE. . . BUT WHY? WHAT IS WRONG WITH OUR BELIEF SYSTEM? WHY IS THIS PERSON MORE WORTHY, MORE VALUABLE? Wouldn’t it make MORE sense since we are the ones looking DEEP that perhaps the person having the ISSUE is really not us at all, other then the fact that we have just GIVEN AWAY OUR POWER. But instead it is really the “other” person who wears the false strength, who is clearly dealing with a fear or a pain inside their own being that they are not able to “face” and by facing us, it would be ALL TOO MUCH FOR THEM. We are all a reflection of TRUTH!! The more aware and awake we are, the more we reflect that truth and the harder it is for others who are asleep to FACE THIS. THIS is not our weakness or flaw but a point of healing in our world.
You see, sometimes we can get so caught up in the “what if’s”, the “ideal” of a situation and what we tragically forget is that IT IS NOT REAL. Our mind is always trying to live in the PAST AND THE FUTURE but it struggles with the NOW. I am thankful for this reminder of HOW BEAUTIFUL my current REALITY IS. It is one of ACCEPTANCE, TRUE, REALITY AND MOSTLY LOVE.
Today I bow to the people in my life who have shown me through rejection HOW TO EMBRACE MY NOW, how to RELAX and sit in the NOW, how to accept my flaws, mistakes as A PART OF THE WHOLE PROCESS.
OM SHANTI ! ! ! ! !
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