Dear WeDharma Diary . . . what he did for me!!

Dear Diary

Its a New Year and the Universe has so brilliantly created such profound opportunity for me near the very end of 2010. Opportunity to CHANGE the things I needed to “CLEAN UP ” in my life and FIX for my own fulfillment and purpose.  The universe has listened to my deepest desires, longings and self sabotaging ways and has created such perfect situations that could do nothing other than FORCE me into my greatness.

I walked into 2011 with a clean slate literally . . . EXCEPT for one area and that area was FEAR vs. LOVE and the ways I expressed that and REACTED to that. This ONE area was going to make or break my DESTINY.

I was financially in the clear and growing abundantly, I had come to some timeless closure and healing within my own family and long standing relationships (thanks to him). . .  I had moved out of an environment that no longer served me and I no longer served. I had found a new HOME on many levels and a new Flourishing of my self made CAREER.  THE ONLY thing standing in my way now was my “relationship” to LOVE. I was stilllll fighting the fear of being “love able” or being “fearless in the presence of greatness” or being “deserving of the renewed vision of a soulmate I now longed for” or  my most  frequesntly visited disaster of “HAVING IT ALL” at my fingertips and then DESTROYING it due to the trust issue I had with my own COMMITMENT to  my HEART.

HE DID THIS FOR ME . . . I always knew that it would take someone STRONGER then my own dark side to TEACH me about TRUE LOVE and the LOVE I deserve to have  and  am capable of having for MYSELF and therefore OTHERS/ YOU. By experiencing YOUR profound trust in GOD/ the UNIVERSE, HARMONY YOURSELF AND ME . . . I have found who I was meant to be.  Within your tolerance, your belief, your persistent efforts and unwavering VISION . . . YOU have lifted the deepest layer of FEAR that has laid in my heart since it was developed at an early age due to the misperceptions of ego, the childhoods we all experience from the innocent eyes we are born with and the pain that has accumulated in our worldly experiences without the wisdom of time to erase it.  YOU my LOVE have HEALED the pain, the FEAR, the DISTRUCTION that has bound me to my own “GREAT DILLUSION” of what  truly IS vs. what fear thinks is real. . . in the world of LOVE and REALITY.

You are probably not even away of the HUGENESS of what your FAITH has done for me, but I need/ want you to know that my angels have spoken THROUGH YOU and for THIS shift you have granted in my HEART. . . I am now giving you ALL OF ME because I Finally Can.

A Dear friend once told me it takes 3 things . . . COMMITMENT, LOYALTY AND DEVOTION. I will now, and can now give those 3 things not only to my own PATH and PURPOSE without fail but also to my love for YOU.  You are the one who deserves this, you are the one who has given THIS back to me  at times with NOTHING in return and YOU are the one I now RESPECT beyond measure due to the example of KINDNESS, TRUST, and TRUE LOVE you have provided for me.

I LOVE YOU

Monks