I was awoken this morning at 5:45am……. it was a fatal crash just outside my window. I had been in the depths of a meaningful dream and was shaken to consciousness from the harsh realities of the world. At first I was not sure if it was part of my dream or an accident in the flesh. I stepped off my bed and walked eagerly to my balcony. I looked from above on the 10th floor and saw a night mare right in front of my eyes.
I observe what appears to me to be a very cold and unfair scene. Something I have perhaps watched in a movie and shuttered at the thought of it being real. There is a fog that rolls over the street, the street lights are blazing, pieces of debris covering a very large intersection…… and only one suv in sight. There is nothing else in sight, the car lights flashing, horn sounding and nothingness, no energy, no movement, just stillness.
At this point I have the reality documented in my view, I go to grab my phone to call for help. Moments later there are 5 fire trucks, police cars and the security guards from my building out front. I watch as the team of healers and protectors gather closely to help, fix, or become aware of the awful tragedy that has just occurred.
I stand there motionless, observing the bodies below me as they do their jobs in a systematic manor. I think to myself how difficult it must be to be called to do such a task each and everyday. I instantly found a much greater appreciation for all of our service people in the world. Their lives stand for something different, special. They see more seriousness in one day then most of us might see all year. While a lot of the world is in the middle of a beautiful dream, these people might be witnessing someone’s last breath.
In that moment I found myself shifting. . . shifting from my usual daily thought pattern into the Power of “now”. If I was the man in the suv, if I was the victim of a hit and run at 5:45am with no responsibility in the matter, but it was my time to leave this earth. . . where would my thoughts be? Where would my life be? Would my worries be the same as they are today? Would I have doubts about anything in my life or would I take strong and specific action to clear away anything standing in my path because life is just too short. Would I allow sadness to linger or would I move on from things more quickly because anything other then sheer positive energy and joy and growth and love “just does not matter”. Would I dwell on $ and let it get me down or would I say “screw it lets down size and have a pot luck and invite all of our friends”? Would I worry if my size 2 jeans were tight or would I say……. wow Im still a size 4 and thats amazing 
Would I randomly pick up the phone and call my Grandma just to say hello even though I can barely understand what she says, but it just doesn’t matter because its the “connection” that counts? Would I call my step Dad and say “I love you” even though he might pass out due to confusion from words we have never shared before? Would I call my Mother and my Father and tell them both that I was disappointed in them both but that I love them, adore then and forgive them? Would I write a book starting right now and publish it by the end of the year?
What are the things we would do in a day, a month, a year if no one was watching except for you and God. What would we change in the way we see our reality if we knew, truly knew that we just do not have much control over when it is our time to leave. What would we like to feel on a daily basis that would keep us shining as bright as the day we were born?
This morning at 5:45am, I was not only woken up from my sleep but I was also AWAKENED to a deeper dimension of reality. Of the truth about the life that we are all a part of. The facts that we so often never focus on because distraction and idealism get in the way. My experience this morning is one I wish to share because I had a day filled with Gratitude and even more then that a day of KINDNESS. Every person I see I smile at, say hello to, or share words with. We are all the same, on the path of life and soul together. Lets all be nice to each other, help out when we can and remind each other of the fragility and uncertainty of the end. Let us be light, let us be love, let us just BE.
~in Peace~
Candace
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